I've got my calendar. I'm ordering meds tomorrow (from overseas so we have to give extra time for customs). I have my days off set up. Thankfully I have a VERY understanding boss who doesn't seem fazed by my "I may need any of these 10 different days off, but won't know til the day it happens" schedule.
It is starting to seem more real. I am trying VERY hard not to get my hopes up. If I get my hopes up and it doesn't work, I will be crushed. Even if I don't get my hopes up, I will be crushed if it doesn't work, but maybe it won't be quite as bad as if I start planning out the non-existant baby's room. So for now I am operating on the "Do lots of stuff that will make pregnancy an inconvenience" plan. I am piling anything I don't need in the extra bedroom. That will be super annoying if I do get pregnant and need it for a baby's room. I am buying snug fitting clothes. I even plan to buy some new jeans. All things that I won't be able to wear if I'm preggo. I'm looking around at jobs. I don't want to change if I do get preggo cause once I have a little one, I plan to stay home. But if the IVF doesn't work, I plan to change jobs. So I'm looking and wouldn't it be annoying if I found my dream job, but got preggo so I didn't take it?
So I am doing all these thing because in a part of my mind, I think that is I am prepared I will jinx it. But if I give myself extra stuff to do if it happens, then maybe just maybe it will happen.