- One of the big ones is that sex either becomes a chore to be done in a certain way or at a certain time. Now that we have moved onto IVF, this isn't so much of an issue, but when you are trying naturally you don't get to be spontaneous. You have to do it exactly when you have to do it. Even if you have heartburn or feel crummy. It can lead to less than awesome interludes.
- Huge feelings of inadequacy come into play. Would he love me more if I could get pregnant? Has he ever wished he married someone else? Someone who could give him a baby naturally? (since some of both my and the hubby's family are probably reading this, I want to say that he has never given me any reason to think this, it just pops into your head sometimes)
- The conversations we have. We still talk about other things, but not as much. IF has invaded my brain and taken over.
- Shopping. It is really hard to even walk past the baby section of a store without crying. What if I never get to shop there for my baby?
- Thoughts on pregnancy. I no longer think about morning sickness as something to dread. I can't wait. I hate thowing up, but that pukey feeling means I have a baby in my belly. Bring it on. Even thoughts of the acutal birth aren't as scary. Look at all the stuff I am putting myself through now. If I can handle all these hormones and all this probing (what we affectionately call vaginal ultrasounds in our house) I think I can handle anything (but I do reserve the right to change my mind later :)
- Excitement about other babies. I currently have three preggo cousins and two preggo good friends. I have to force myself to be excited about their babies. And sometimes, I just can't do it. Planning a baby shower for one of the friends is REALLY tough!
- My fear of needles. I am now doing blood work super often, allergy shots (not related to IF, but still) and acupuncture weekly. I may turn into a sprinkler if I drink too much water, but needles don't bother me much anymore.
Also WELCOME ICLWers!!!