Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Welcome ICLWers!

I'm not very computer savy so I haven't got one of those nifty TTC timelines or anything like that so I'll sum up where we are. I was diagnosed with PCOS at 17. Married my hubby just over 2 years ago. We have been trying for almost that whole time. We did a round of Clomid with no effect and a round of Letrzole with little effect (I technically ovulated, but the follies were tiny and useless). So now we are waiting til its time for IVF. Did I mention that we also have some MFI? Hubby's morphology was 1% so ICSI here we come. But we are getting close. I have my baseline on July 6th! Two weeks from tomorrow!!!

Right now I am trying to reign in my excitment and fear. Both tend to run away with me at alternating times. On Sunday I was so excited and was having trouble not running up to our extra room (aka future baby room) and starting with my plans for when a baby comes. Then last night, I spent the evening crying (aka blubbering) on my hubby's shoulder. He kept trying to reassure me, but he doesn't have a clue. He told me that we know I have good eggs so we are in good shape. But we don't know that I have good eggs! We have no reason to believe that my eggs are good. I have only ovulated once in my life and the eggs were tiny. I have never had a follie that was bigger than 10mm. He didn't know that the eggs that I have could be crummy. He didn't know that some of the follies may not have eggs in them. I know that I know stuff from reading all these blogs and doing crazy amounts of research (because I'm obsessed). So I told him about some of the things that could go wrong. I don't want him to stress out, but I want him to understand why I am so worried.

Hopefully today will be a bit better. I have acupunture so I at least feel like I am doing something. I started going to a new acupunturist. She is a cute little Chinese lady who rushes around super fast and gets the needles in super quick. She is also working to help me lose weight so thats great too.


  1. I really hope you have success soon...that turning to IVF with ICSI does the trick for you.

    And, too cool about your husband's grandpa inventing the stuff that the embryos grow in.

    ICLW #10

  2. I found you through LFCA and I'm so glad I did! I've got my baseline the 5th for our first IVF cycle!! I'm looking forward to reading your journey as I go through mine. Good luck!

  3. Thanks for stopping by! I look forward to following your journey too. (I'm with you on the ups and downs. I regularly go from naming my future children to mourning their lack of existence in about .5 seconds. My poor husband.) Anyway, good luck with IVF :) I am crossing my fingers that your eggs are perfect and plentiful!

  4. Thanks for stopping by my blog! I can relate to so much of what you're talking about here. I also have PCOS and hubby has morphology issues. Plus, I'm totally a reader. I read EVERYTHING when we were in the thick of trying to have Bean and some days it made me feel better and some days it made me feel worse. I really hope that IVF is the answer for you. You'll be in my thoughts on the 6th!

    ICLW #9

  5. Another ICLWer here, Lissie. I'm sure it's difficult for a man to understand what a woman goes through in normal circumstances let alone at a time like you are going through. Hang in there and believe that the best is about to happen!

    ICLW #143

  6. Hi! Thank you for visiting my blog! I know how easy it is to feel so hopeful one second and helpless the next. It is hard when the husbands want to be our rock and keep everything together. I've learned in the past almost 2 yrs that he hurts just as much as me, he just hides it better! :)
    Let it all out...it feels good to sometimes!
    Wishing you so much luck on your journey to motherhood!
    Look forward to following your story!
    Maria :)

  7. Thanks for your comment on my blog. I hope your IVF goes great! I love acupuncture too, I'm glad it's helping you.

  8. I hope your ICSI will help you in fulfilling the baby dream! I was also delighted to read your previous post. Whoa!

    iclw #36

  9. Thinking about you and your upcoming IVF!

    Happy ICLW!